What it feels like to be told you may have a brain tumor ~ Mommy Moments

04/15/2012 2:00 pm · 96 comments

by Sarah A Thrifty Mom

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We share many aspects of our life with our readers.  But this is just a small window into our very busy lives.  I often ask myself what I should and should not share in such a public manor.  Last year I mentioned to you a few times that I have not been feeling well.  Trying not to complain but the truth is,  the last year I have been sick more than I have been well.  My body has just been so “off” I would get over one thing only to come down with another.

But on top of being sick, I was dealing with a constant head ache, freezing all the time, shaky, dizzy, exhausted,  and forgetful.  I  am pretty good at putting on a “happy face” for the outside world, but was wearing down.  My doctor and I decided to look a little deeper and try and figure out what was going on.  Tests results came back and showed that my thyroid was not working as it should and my pituitary gland levels were off as well.  My doctor was concerned that I may have a tumor on my pituitary gland, which meant I needed an MRI. Being told you may have a brain tumor is not something one looks forward to hearing.  Having major head surgery is something I have done before, but would prefer to avoid again.

As if just this news alone was not stressful enough this month my son was in the ER after I found him in bed face down having a seizure.  I was on yet another round on antibiotics for a bad chest cold, I had a PH study done on my stomach, in which I got to wear a fancy tube hanging out of my nose for 48 hours.   Then to top it all off my hubby Matt ended up in the ER with blood presser 178/129 that he was unable to lower even after an aggressive round of meds.  At this point I am starting to wonder what else could go wrong. As I was laying in the MRI scan I realized  I had done this 20+ years ago as a small child … once again trying to figure out what was wrong.  I realized that it was the strength of  that little girl still inside of me that I find myself coming back to.  Knowing that  my Father In Heaven is aware of my trials, He hears my prayers and will give me the strength to keep moving forward.  And what I am doing now as a Mother of my own 4 little ones is SO IMPORTANT!  I need to teach them to know who they are, find strength, establish good habits, teach them to be strong,  be compassionate… because some day they too will be searching for answers on how to make it thru the challenges in life.  It will be their faith, and life lessons that will get them thru it.

I am happy to report that I do NOT have a brain tumor, but after more tests we found 7 spots on my Thyroid.  I have since had 2 ultra sounds and now planning to do a nuclear scan.  Being that thyroid cancer runs in my family these spots are not something to take lightly  ( my mom had cancer as well as her sister and several of her kids).

I still have many question that are unanswered maybe that is why I have waited so long to share this with you all… But I do know trials in life make one stronger and make you look at what is most important in ones life.

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Molly
Molly

You and your family will be in our prayers.

Shellie
Shellie

Our prayers are with you and your entire family. I hope you get to feeling better soon. And we all appreciate all the hard work you put in on trying to save everyone money$$ your doing a great job. Thanks again God Bless!!

Denise Clark
Denise Clark

Goodness, you have been through a lot. I am glad you do not have a brain tumor and you are right, faith in God is the foundation of living a fully enriched life. Having things happen to us sometimes is hard to understand but that is where our faith comes in. I lost my sister in 2009 at age 41 to a massive heart attack. I could not understand why her and not me? I am the oldest but I didn't have the health problems she had. We (as a family) have gone through a lot, my dad having a stroke, my sister's middle son dying at 23 hours after birth and my grandmother getting Alzheimer's. You automatically think, "why is this happening", but despite all of our problems, we are truly blessed with a loving God who knows what is best for all of us. It is very hard for a non-believer to understand or how to cope with such tragedies, but there again, faith in God gets us through every single day. I wish you all the best.

Rebecca W
Rebecca W

Wow, we are sending prayers to you and your family. Thank you for sharing with us and we hope you all get well soon!

susan
susan

Sarah - Your message is one that alot of people need to hear. I'm glad you shared it. We all have struggles but we know that God is in control and we just have to keep our faith in the One who has us in his hands at all times. Praying that both you and Matt will stay strong not only for your family but for each other and that God will heal both of you

Terri
Terri

There seems to be a lot of us out there in cyber space that have very strong and good words to you. You have entered all our lives and we care about you. You will get through this. You are strong. It sounds like you come from good stock;-) and a good set of parents. You listened to them and here you are. Use their words of wisdom and your Faith in Our Heavenly Father, you will make it. A positive attitude is as important as any medicine you can take. God bless you and your entire family. We will be waiting for updates. This comes from one of Mavericks friends from the Smart Money Smart Woman,maybe Matt will remember us:-)))))

Angie D
Angie D

Sarah I am so proud of your example to all of us that read your posts, how inspiring!!! It's been fun to see you become the woman you are today, and an amazing one at that! My prayers are with you and your sweet family. Hang in there, keep the faith and "just keep swimming" (from "Finding Nemo") much love <3 and (((((((hugs))))))))

Melissa F.
Melissa F.

Sarah, I will say a prayer for you and your family. Hang in there. He is bigger than all of this. He can do amazing things.

Melissa
Melissa

As I write this tears are flowing down my cheeks! I feel your stress and heartache! However, I know that we serve a GREAT GOD and HE CAN DO ALL THINGS! Keeping you in my prayers!!

Sharon
Sharon

Thank you for letting us know what's been going on. Praying for you and your fam.

Angel
Angel

Matt & Sarah, Your doing the right thing. I know you may sometimes wonder. I believe God will use what comes our way to make us stronger. He doesn't prevent bad things happening, but uses them. I try to look at things as being challenges and not "bad things" . I have epilepsy, then asthma, 3 left shoulder sugeries, thyroid problems, then two minor knee sugeries, high chloresteral and blood pressure. I've had my gall bladder & appendix removed. And this last year I had a total knee replacement. Plus 4 live children, 2 stillborn, and 2 miscarriages. At 45yrs I have sometimes felt like I'm slowly falling apart piece by piece. Through it all it has made me closer to God, and much, much closer to my husband and with my family. I love your being able to share with others. I am learning over and over that the challenges of life hit everyone. But it helps us and others to be able to share the good as well as the bad. Praying for you all.

Tyree
Tyree

You and your family never cease to amaze me. I hope it will all work out for the best. You will be blessed.

Karyl
Karyl

Sarah, thanks for sharing such a personal part of your life. My prayers are with you and your family. You are amazing!

Terry
Terry

Isn't the waiting and the numerous tests the worst?!?!?!? I lost my voice 2 years ago (yes, my husband was thrilled), but the stress of the Doctors trying to figure out WHY made me more sick then my voice being gone. I had the 48 hour PH study done also - that was lovely. Along with the MRI's, CT scans, numerous biopsies, PET scan, endosocopy, ultrasound, removed 2 lymph nodes - all I wanted was my voice back!! After all this, I had a few things "light up" on the tests, but nothing was pinpointed on why. My husband said that I know my body the best and we will deal with any other problems if they surface down the road and lets just concentrate on my voice. So that is what we did and after having a vocal cord replacement I now have a voice but still can't sing like Celine Dion!!!! I feel for what you and your family are going thru - the "what if's" are not fun. Your faith and family will help.

Amber @ Tales of Domestica
Amber @ Tales of Domestica

Wow, your family has really been through a lot lately. I am so sorry for your troubles. Life can be hard, sounds like your challenges are only making your stronger. Thank you for sharing. I appreciate all your family does for our family through your website. Sending prayers your way!

Kimberly Cumby
Kimberly Cumby

We will be praying for you and your family. Praying that Jesus will help you get through this.

Janice G.
Janice G.

Thank you for sharing deeply personal and moving experiences and your testimony. I'm sorry that you and your family are going through such a difficult time in your lives right now. I hope you will be loved, comforted and supported now and in the future. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

sundra dauzat
sundra dauzat

I am so sorry for all your recent illnesses with you and your family. I have a disabled child and disabilities of my own, and sometimes I do wonder if I can handle it all. This past week has been a rather busy one for myself as well. I wish your family good health and that you recover quickly as well. I have been a subscriber for about 3 years now, and I have not only enjoyed your frugal tips but also your personal stories.

Barbi
Barbi

We may not personally know you but we are all part of the same family because we share the same heavenly father. Prayers for your whole family.

Debbie
Debbie

You must be living well to have so many trials thrown at your family! As moms, it is sometimes so very overwhelming to take care of our family. But when we are not well ourselves, it is insurmountable. It's always amazing to see what moms of young children are able to work through. It's obviously why we have children at a young age. May our Heavenly Father bless you in all your trials. Thanks for all you do.

Lisa
Lisa

Sometimes talking about what is going on in your life with people you don't even know can be the best medicine. They are not emotional and often can look at a situation in a new light. I wish you and your family to get better soon and keep up with that positive attitude because that is a big part of it all.

Jeri Bugher Carr
Jeri Bugher Carr

Hi Sarah, glad to hear that you are staying on top of every thing. sounds like you are having some crazy moments in health. I am proud of you and all that you have done, the woman you have become, the wife you are and the amazing mother you are. I am sending healing love and prayers for you all. with Love Jeri

Bev M
Bev M

Hi came your website just to see what your family was up to, what the deals are and this not what I expected, I will pray for you. We are not supposed to get more than we can handle but seems like you got more than your fair share of trials. Thanks for sharing, I will keep checking back on your family.

Amy
Amy

Will be praying for your whole family. Eph. 3:20.

Deborah Gray
Deborah Gray

My heart goes out to you through all your trials and tribulations. I write this as I prepare to take my husband in for a thyroid biopsy on Wednesday. He has had all the ultra-sounds, etc and we now move on to another test to find out why he is constantly dizzy. You and your family are in my prayers!

Toni Williams
Toni Williams

Sending prayers your way to you and your family:)

Shelley
Shelley

As someone who has experienced a very similar thyroid situation, I want to reassure you that you will get through it. My journey has taken two years, but the Lord is faithful and has promised healing and restoration. I can't even put into words just how sick I was, numerous tests, biopsy, ultrasounds, radioactive uptake, and ultimately surgery to remove my thyroid. All this while feeling dreadful the whole time. I want you to know that I know how you feel at this time. ((hugs)) Getting to the bottom of thyroid issues takes a lot of time, testing and patience. I pray for quick answers, health in your body, strength in the Lord, healing for your son and husband, and peace for you and your family.

Sharon R
Sharon R

Prayers for you. Keep us posted!

Anne
Anne

A few years ago I was diagnosed with a life changing disease. I too, had several things with my family and myself seem to go awry and felt as you did at that time, "what else could possibly go wrong?". I found as you did, our Father in Heaven knows our trials and knows what I am going through. It was a time when I truely learned the full meaning of the atonement and to this day when dark days come, I always remind myself, He is right beside me holding my hand and carrying me when I need the burden to be lightened. Thank you sharing your burden, for it helps me to remember that all of us have trials and we are all loved by our Heavenly Father. You have lifted me up today by your light. In fact, your site shine your light brightly and know that you are always in many prayers. And always in mine. May your doctors have the answers from Him to restore your health quickly!

Linda H
Linda H

Prayers being said for you, your family and the medical staffs you are each working with.

Brianna
Brianna

We come today, Lord, to ask you to Bless this family who shares their lives with us, and help each other through difficult times. Smile down upon them as they reach out to others, Lord. Honor us with your Presents and Bless our Hearts. We know you are a giver of Faith, Hope, and Love and open our Hearts, Lord, for those who suffer with the brokenness of their health. Make us aware of your Compassion and Love we receive from our friends and family as this family heals from within our Hearts to show their strength, that they may be strong. Hold them in your hands and let Peace flood their souls as they accept what is ahead of them. Let them be brave enough to face whatever you have in store for them. Calm their anxious souls and touch their Hearts. In the name I pray, Jesus Christ, Amen It takes courage to allow us, your friends, family and Loved one, to be here with you through this time in your life. As difficult as it may be, Prayers are Powerful, just as The Lord.

Debbie
Debbie

Love you Honey, You have always shown strength in your trials. Such an example to me and Dad. Hopefully something we taught you will help with this. I have always known since the first time you were placed in my arms that you were a special daughter of your Heavenly Father and you talked with him before you came to earth about the trials you would face. Remember that and know that he loves you even more than I do and that is alot. Love mom

Wendy
Wendy

You are amazing - will be praying for you.

Ann
Ann

You will see the end of the tunnel God bless you your children and your husband you are amazing

lynn
lynn

I am glad you have your faith in God to strengthen you. I will pray for you and your family.

JC
JC

Hope you get feeling better soon! You are amazing!

Tonya Morris
Tonya Morris

Dear God, Please be with this family as they face uncertain circumstances. Thank you for their faith in You. I pray your will be done in all things concerning this family. Please remove any fear or worry and give them peace and comfort in all that may lie ahead of them. May they find the peace and comfort in knowing You are always in control and all your plans work together for the good. I ask these things in Jesus' precious and holy name. Amen.

Autumn
Autumn

Thank you for sharing, prayers be with you & the family. You are an amazing woman, mother & and with all this you still reach out to help others! Wow!!! Gods grace is good

Lianne
Lianne

You've had many stressful situations in a short time. I appreciate that you shared with us so we can be reminded about what is truly important in life. Sometimes in times of trial things come into focus more clearly than ever before. It is also during the struggles that we honestly know we cannot manage on our own strength alone . I taped this to my bathroom mirror. "God has a thousand ways where I cannot see one. When all my means have reached their end. Then His have just begun."

Barbara
Barbara

So glad you shared what your dealing with...not only does it give people a chance to support you through prayers and messages....but it also helps those dealing with their own health struggles realize they are not alone. I hope you get good news, and feel better soon.

Joelee
Joelee

I am on your site everyday reading things you have posted, I often wonder how you do this and take care of your family. I admire your shear determination, bravery, commitment and most of all you as a mom. I know that sometimes we have to take a break, breath and take care of you!!!! I will pray for you and your family. So please take a moment for you! You deserve that more than anything. Joelee

michele
michele

You are such an inspiration! I love your site and I love your bravery, I think you are an awesome parent and I really look up to you !

Emily
Emily

Thank you for sharing this side of your life with us. You are an amazing lady, that is very evident! Thank you for reminding me to turn to my Heavenly Father when things get rough. Physical health is so important and I have realized that more and more this last year. I will be thinking of you Sarah, and Matt and your sweet kids and praying for good health to be sent your way. Take care!! :)

Gail Beireis Davis
Gail Beireis Davis

Having been through several major health issues with different members of my family I can feel for you. The unknown is so much more scary than knowing and having a plan. God is with you and you're family. He will give you strength now and later. There will be a time when you can will be able to help someone struggling in their life. May God Bless and Keep you in His arms.

Tina Harris
Tina Harris

Many Blessings to you Matt and all of your family. Thank you for sharing, although you might not think it's "appropriate" on how much personal stuff to get into when you're writing your blog, that is what makes me personally love your blog. A lot of times the blogs out there are fluff, and all you read about is what a blogger wants you to know mostly good stuff and we all have choices. Not that good stuff is a "bad thing" it's just that it makes them seem unreal at times. We all have issues, health wise and other, it just enlightening and refreshing to hear the realness in your posts. I'm not finding joy in your medical illnesses, believe me we have lots going on at our home as well, I just wanted you to know that there are a lot of us out there praying for you and appreciate you sharing.

jennifer newman
jennifer newman

Sending prayers for you and your family. I love reading your blog everyday and feel like I know ya'll! Hoping that God protects, heals and blesses your family. With love, Jennifer

susan
susan

It is always a gift to be able to pray for someone. Thank you for giving me the opportunity and I will hold all of your family deep within my heart here in Tennessee.

Michelle
Michelle

Thank you for sharing. You have a positive attitude on so many things. That is great to hear and share, don't give up. Please keep us updated. We care.

Kim
Kim

I am SO glad to hear of your negative test results! Having gone through this same thing this year I can empathise with you. You are so correct that our faith in God will keep us going knowing that he cares for us and that by his strength we can make it through. God Bless You, Kim

Roxie
Roxie

And for your son and husband too.

A Thrifty Mom
A Thrifty Mom

Matt is now on new meds still doing tests but is out of the Stroke risk range... but doing much better. Little Matthew to is doing better and still waiting on test and Drs till we know more

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