Our Family

A letter I wrote a few weeks ago for my friend… but finally had the courage to share it. I hope its message can not only help her family, but many others! You will find normal again, you are not alone!

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You will find normal again, you are not alone!

We all know the saying you never know someone till you have walked in their shoes?  I don’t think any of us can 100% understand what someone is going through because we are all so different. But you can at least have a better understanding of what it is like when you have had similar experiences.

This morning I woke up and saw a Go Fund Me account set up for a family friend. My Mom and several  people from our town had shared it. My heart sank, I saw a photo of her sweet lil baby girl.  I then found out that she had fallen into the camp fire and been life flighted to a burn center.  This was awful, but at least the burns were on her arms and chest, not her whole body.  But I also understand how traumatic and critical burns can be. Clearly she is a very sick little girl, and has a long road ahead of her. Likely years of healing and therapy will be needed.

I got the kids ready for school, yet in the back of my mind still feeling a bit sick knowing someone you care about is hurting.  We said our family prayers to get the kids off to school,  I asked my Father in Heaven to please be with this little girl. But also to be with her parents, and grandparents.  Asking that they will have the strength to care of her.  Being in the hospital with a critically ill child, is honestly one of the hardest things you will ever do. I know because  I have been there.

“In an empty hospital room, numb, confused and heart broken”

My oldest son was born missing half his heart. When the doctor delivered that news to us about 12 hours after my son was born, my whole life changed.  Life changing decisions were made within a matter of minutes my son and husband left on a life flight to Seattle in an attempt to try and save his life.  I was left there in an empty hospital room, numb, confused and heart broken. How did this even happen, and how was life ever going to be normal again?

The tears seemed endless, and as kind as the nurses and staff had been, I felt so alone. My Mom was there with me, yet I still felt so empty.  I really wanted to just go to sleep and wake up and find out all of this was a bad dream.  This is not how my life was suppose to go? I was suppose to be bringing my baby home and starting my new life as a mother. Instead I was laying in an empty hospital room, looking at the empty car seat that I had brought with me the day before. The car seat that was suppose to bring my baby home.

“Constant Praying”

I prayed a lot, almost constant. Praying and crying was about the only thing I felt like I could do.  At that point they only gave my son about a 30% chance of living through his first surgery. I had just gotten word from my husband that they did not even think he was a candidate for surgery, he would most likely die on the operating table.  My baby was going to die? Those are words no mothers should ever have to hear. I was not even there to hold him, I could not fly out till the next day. I never really understood heartache till that day. Like I said before, my life changed forever on that day.

“To say I felt hopeless was an understatement”

I was worried about my son, but I was also worried about myself. How was I going to do this? How was I going to pay for his surgeries? Where was I going to stay?  How was I going to pay for food and travel?  Would I be able to learn to care for him if he did live?  How was I going to give him all his medications? Would I be able to learn all the medical terms?  Am I going to loosing my baby?  HOW WAS I EVER GOING TO DO THIS? To say I felt hopeless was an understatement.

As I lay looking at the window, tears running down my face,  I was turned away from my Mom so she could not see me crying. I heard the phone ring, my Mom answered it for me.  Still looking out the window I did not turn over, instead I just listened. I heard my Mom say, “She is doing ok, she is just really scared and wants to get to her baby.”  My Mom then tipped the phone down and said, “Sarah, it is Aunt Susan she wanted to let you know she loves you and that she knows how scared you must be right now, and she is praying for you.”

“She was the first of many people that gave me the courage to keep going”

Once again the tears started flowing down my face, but this time it was a little different. You see my Aunt Susan had lost her baby minutes after giving birth about 20 years before. I had always heard the story, and thought how sad that must have been. Yet I never understood it, I had never felt those feeling because I had not lived through that same experience.  That phone call brought me so much strength, it was if she had reached through the phone and given me a hug. I was still terrified and scared. Yet I felt such love from her, she had been there before, she knew what I was feeling. She helped me feel safe, and that I could get through this.  I had not lost my baby yet, but if I did I knew that she was one of the few people that understood my heartache. She was the first of many people that gave me the courage to keep going.

“Outpouring of Love”

Over the next few years I saw an outpouring of love from friends, family and even total strangers. Money to help pay for flights, rides to the airport, meals, cards filled with encouragement, strangers who let us borrow their car while we were out of state at distant hospitals.  People coming to sit with me so I was not alone, since we were in the hospital for weeks at a time. It was a long and often lonely journey.  Everyone else was moving right along with their lives. Yet mine seemed to be moving in slow motion and it seemed my “normal life” was only a memory.

One of the things that gave me the most hope was seeing other heart families that had made it, or other parents that had sick kids that were now well.  I knew they understood what I was feeling, the heartache that seemed to consume me, they had felt it too.  But here they were a few years later with smiles on their faces, going to school, having family dinner around the table (instead of in a hospital room). They were planning vacations, they were going to church, going to the movies, or just going to work everyday…  they were just living normal lives.  And that gave me more hope than anything.

“Not just for your little one, but for YOU”

So as I sit here, I want to tell my friend who’s lil girl is in the burn unit right now… my heart aches for you.  My prayers have been constant for you today and will continue to be offered in your behalf. Not just for your little one, but for YOU.  I pray that you can feel them, I pray that you have the strength it takes to watch your little one hurt, and know that there is nothing you can do to make it stop.  You never understand how much you love someone until they are hurting and you can’t fix it.

Your journey is not going to be easy, there are going to be days you are going to want to give up. You will feel anger, sadness, confusion,  joy, hope and even total emptiness during this journey. But you will find joy again, and it will be more meaningful than ever!    I can also tell you, you will find normal again someday.

Our stories are different, but I hope you can find comfort in me telling you. You are not alone, you can do it, you are loved… and with time you will be able to smile again!


Watch my recorded video on answering your questions and telling my sons story

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Lantern 4 pack

06/15/2017 6:00 am · 0 comments

by Tami

Lantern 4 pack

Whether you are an avid camper or just want to be prepared in case of an emergency, this Lantern 4 pack is a great deal

Lantern 4 pack

Brightest Camping Lantern – LED Lantern (EMITS 350 LUMENS!) – Camping Equipment Gear Lights for Hiking, Emergencies, Hurricanes, Outages, Storms (Black, 4 Pack)

  • BRIGHTEST LED LANTERN FOR ITS SIZE: Latest technology Chip-On-Board LED technology illuminates more area with more light than the commonly found 30 LED lanterns. It’s light is also warmer in color than the competition’s 30 LED lanterns, eliminating that cold, harsh feel. The warm light also leaves your sleep rhythm intact, helping you to avoid the insomnia that other brands might cause. (EMITS 350 LUMENS!)
  • DEPENDABLE BUILD – Each of our premium LED lanterns are hand-built with military-grade, water-resistant plastic – making them extra durable wherever you may be. The lantern is built for both the indoors & outdoors. ADVANCED COLLAPSIBLE DESIGN – Superior design and construction allows our lantern to be SUPER lightweight and compact. Our lantern is EASILY collapsible with a simple push.
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  • UPDATED VERSION: Updated/latest version comes with 12AA batteries and emits 350 LUMENS (previous version emits 300 LUMENS)

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Camping Oven

06/02/2017 6:00 am · 0 comments

by Tami

Camping Oven

Use this camping oven on your camping stove for cooking while camping. Great if the power goes out at home too.

Camping Oven

Coleman 2000016462 Camp Oven, 13.5 x 12.9 x 3.3 Inch

  • Bake up rolls, cinnamon rolls, corn bread and other treats at the campsite
  • Keep your cooking warm until your group gets back
  • Warms up over Coleman® camp stoves
  • 10 sq. in. (64.52 sq. cm) rack adjusts to three cooking heights
  • Folds flat for convenient, space-saving storage
  • Easy-to-read thermometer
  • Smooth and easy to clean, corrosion-resistant aluminized steel finish also resists scuffs
  • 13.5 in. x 12.9 in. x 3.3 in. (34.3 cm x 32.7 cm x 8.3 cm)
  • Not recommended for use on grills
  • 1-year limited warranty
  • Made in China

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French Crepes and filling recipes

Home made French Crepes and Filling Recipe

Ok it’s Matt and yes I can cook, and it was my “Random Act of Love” for the day.

I made Crepes, with tons of fillings and creams. It wasn’t my first time making the crepes, I have made them since high school, but the cream cheese fillings was new. First I started with a new Basic Crepe recipe.

  • 2 large eggs
  • 3/4 cup milk
  • 1/2 cup water
  • 1 cup flour
  • 3 tablespoons melted butter
  • 2 1/2 tbs sugar for sweet desert crepes, and 1 tsp vanilla extract (add in the blender)
  • or for savory crepes 1/4 tsb salt, and 1/4 cup chopped herbs, spinach or sun dry tomatoes  (add after blender)

Combine all of the ingredients into a blender. Mix for about 10 seconds and place in a bowl and then let set in the fridge for at least on hour to let the bubbles work out. Less bubbles means the crepes stay together and tear less.

Depending on the pan size you want to pour enough batter into the non-stick pan, with a bit of butter coating, so that when you swirl the batter around in the pan it barely coats the pan.

You want to let it sit there on medium heat for about 30 seconds. You can flick the edges up and peek  under it. You want a little browning.

You should be able to pick at it with your fingers and flip it over. Or if you have a bendable spatula you can get up under it and flip it.

For the creme filling I made the following amounts and split it 3 ways:

  • 12 ounces cream cheese, at room temperature
  • 1/2 cup sour cream
  • 3/4 cup sugar
  • 1/4 cup powdered sugar
  • one tsp vanilla extract

Combine all above in a mixing bowl. With a hand mixer blend the ingredients together till smooth. Then I split them into thirds.

On one third which was about a cup, I added about 1/4 cup of puree strawberries (or what ever fruit you want) I mixed the two and poured them into a bowl.

On another third I squeezed one lemon juice into a bowl, and scraped the zest into it. We actually do not have a zester so I used a serrated knife. Just be careful. I blended the creme filling with this lemon juice and zest and placed in a bowl.

On the last third I left as is, and used it as a filling along with what ever you would like. It was good along side the Apple and Pear Cinnamon filling as an idea.

There a few ways to fold crepes. I have always folded them into thirds. But you can fold them in half then half again. So it looks like a triangle.

To make them simply add the filling inside and fold. Or you can fold them and add the topping on top.

Some ideas are Chocolate syrup, Maple Syrup, whip cream, fruit of all sorts, cream fillings, caramel syrup, And for the savory crepes you can add meat, veggie’s, you name it. Crepes are like the French form of Burritos..  anything works… Have Fun!

French Crepes and filling recipes
 
Ingredients
  • 2 large eggs
  • ¾ cup milk
  • ½ cup water
  • 1 cup flour
  • 3 tablespoons melted butter
  • 2½ tbs sugar for sweet desert crepes, and 1 tsp vanilla extract (add in the blender)
  • or for savory crepes ¼ tsb salt, and ¼ cup chopped herbs, spinach or sun dry tomatoes (add after blender)
Instructions
  1. Combine all of the ingredients into a blender. Mix for about 10 seconds and place in a bowl and then let set in the fridge for at least on hour to let the bubbles work out. Less bubbles means the crepes stay together and tear less.
  2. Depending on the pan size you want to pour enough batter into the non-stick pan, with a bit of butter coating, so that when you swirl the batter around in the pan it barely coats the pan.
  3. You want to let it sit there on medium heat for about 30 seconds. You can flick the edges up and peek under it. You want a little browning.
  4. You should be able to pick at it with your fingers and flip it over. Or if you have a bendable spatula you can get up under it and flip it.
  5. For the creme filling I made the following amounts and split it 3 ways:
  6. ounces cream cheese, at room temperature
  7. /2 cup sour cream
  8. /4 cup sugar
  9. /4 cup powdered sugar
  10. one tsp vanilla extract
  11. Combine all above in a mixing bowl. With a hand mixer blend the ingredients together till smooth. Then I split them into thirds.
  12. On one third which was about a cup, I added about ¼ cup of puree strawberries (or what ever fruit you want) I mixed the two and poured them into a bowl.
  13. On another third I squeezed one lemon juice into a bowl, and scraped the zest into it. We actually do not have a zester so I used a serrated knife. Just be careful. I blended the creme filling with this lemon juice and zest and placed in a bowl.
  14. On the last third I left as is, and used it as a filling along with what ever you would like. It was good along side the Apple and Pear Cinnamon filling as an idea.
  15. There a few ways to fold crepes. I have always folded them into thirds. But you can fold them in half then half again. So it looks like a triangle.
  16. To make them simply add the filling inside and fold. Or you can fold them and add the topping on top.
  17. Crepes go great with maple syrup, yogurt, fresh fruit, or even try savory crepes with meat, veggies or just about anything you feel like.

Bellow are links to more crepe ideas…

Strawberry-Buttercream-Frosting-quick-and-easy-recipe-ButterCream-Frosting-StrawberryChocolate Crepes with Fresh Strawberry Creme Filling 

Lemon Crepes with Lemon Cream filling

You can also go big time with this awesome Crepe Maker

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